Monday, December 23, 2013

Day 222: My Prejudice against Teachers

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to complain about the educational system to the point where an emotion of anger comes up within me.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I by myself can't change the educational system and by complaining about it to myself and others does nothing but give me a headache and cause anger within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take my anger out on the teachers I have had. Thinking that they should change the way they teach to suit my individual ideas/wants of how I think a classroom should be ran.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe a teacher should change their teaching style in order to benefit me not realizing that in believing this I am not taking others into consideration and only myself and not realizing that this is self interest.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to place myself in the shoes of the teachers I have had not realizing that this system is set up for the teachers to follow rules and not following the rules of what the people in the system expect can lead to firing or getting in trouble and not realizing that their income depends on following the rules.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in a form of prejudice where I automatically dislike any teacher when I realize they are a teacher and that they are some form of evil that is against me not realizing that I am separating myself from anyone who may be a teacher.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that my prejudice towards anyone who is part of the educational system as a teacher or administrator, etc.. is the same thing as being racist or sexist and that this form of prejudice is just as ignorant as being racist or sexist. 

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that whenever I place someone into a category them I am separating myself from them and participating in a form of prejudice.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and purposely make it known to certain teachers that I have had that I don't like them through body language and through giving them dirty looks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that just because someone is a teacher that they are against me and out to get me not realizing that that this belief has to do with events that have happened in my past and not realizing that this belief is a confirmation that I am accepting and allowing my past to have an influence on me today. 

When and as I see myself complaining about the educational system like the teachers and others who work in it - I stop and I breathe. I realize the educational system is not as efficient as it could be and that complaining about it only creates anger within me that has an effect on me and those around me. I commit myself to stop the thoughts and emotions that come up within me when talking about education with others or reading something about education through noticing that the anger that comes up within me turns into verbal diarrhea combined with anger. 

When and as I see myself participating in a form of prejudice that I have towards teachers through thoughts and emotions - I stop and I breathe. I realize that just because someone is a teacher or works in the school system doesn't mean they are out to get me. I commit myself to stop the prejiduce I have towards teachers and those who work in the school system.

When and as I see myself thinking that assignments a teacher gives me and other students are stupid assignments and a waste of time - I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am in school to get a piece of paper that might help me with my employment opportunities in the future. I commit myself to do the assignments the teacher assigns and instead of complaining about it to sit down and do it as I realize this is the way for me to graduate.

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